You are amazing and I cannot believe you have been apart of our family for 1 whole year!
It seems like you have always been apart of our lives, I'm starting to not remember what life was like before you came into the family. The memories are so much better now that you are here.
You are one active little girl.
You still are only crawling, just in the last week you have let us hold your hands and try and walk with you. I think you know it's much faster to crawl to get where you want to go.
You have really started mimicking us and the sounds we make. It keeps us rolling with laughter to hear you.
You love to be chased around the floor. We play this game where we growl at you and you take off crawling as fast as you can. It is the sweetest game when it's you and Daddy playing.
You are so ticklish! I love to get your little underarms when you raise your arms up high. You laugh so hard, best sound ever!
You can throw a fit! I mean better than any other baby I have ever seen. When you've had enough, you let everyone know it. Especially when you are tired, you really don't want to be messed with.
You love sleeping, you sleep from 7pm to 8am almost every day along with 2 naps a day. You also really love your bed, when you get really fussy I can put you in your bed for a few minutes and you just cuddle up with Curious George and chill out for a moment.
You are in size 3 diapers.
You are in 9-12 month clothes, you just aren't quite to 12 months because you are still so tiny.
We go to the doctor next Wednesday and I will come back and post your weight, height, and stats.
You are happy! I love this about you, you have the sweetest little personality and charm anyone.
You kiss everything, everyone of your stuffed animals gets kissed daily and you warm our hearts with your big, slobbery kisses. They are the best!
It's like the dishwasher is your personal jungle gym, you crawl up and down it all day
This cracks me up, the more I tell you No, don't get up there the cuter the faces get when you defy me. As your Daddy puts it, let her do whatever she wants. She's too cute to say "No" too!
Your birthday lunch with Daddy
Miss Emery, this has been a tough year for this momma. I think some days I am still dealing with the feelings of having you in the NICU for the first 10 days of your life. I still hurt about the care you received, I felt so helpless just allowing people to poke and stick you with things that your Daddy and I saw as unnecessary. I will never in my life forgive Northwest Texas Hospital for the horrible care you received. I pray you never have to go to that hospital again. I still sometimes get chocked up about not having those pictures of our little family getting to leave the hospital together. Instead I remember how broken hearted I felt when your Daddy and I left the hospital without you. I sobbed the whole way home, every night for those 9days.
I'm also still carrying a lot of guilt that I wasn't able to breastfeed you. You never latched; I felt my heart rip apart when it became apparent you and I would never be able to have that closeness. I feel like I should have tried harder or used the lactation nurse a little more, and then you would have been able to do it. But, honestly one of the prerequisites for coming home from the NICU was you had to be able to eat on your own. Either from me or a bottle, your Daddy and I chose the bottle because it meant we would get you out of the hospital faster. I am sorry for not trying harder Emery, we just felt the care you were receiving was awful and it was more important to get home and safe with two people who would do anything to take care of you.
You have changed my world; the first 4 months were the hardest thing I had ever experienced. You taught me how to live for someone else. I needed to grow up and start to think for someone else. You have made me a better person. You opened up an emotional side of me I had on lock down. I know what it's like to have my heart full of love and joy; because I experience it every time I pick you up to kiss you. Emery, you are the center of our world. We are so happy to have you; we strive to be better people because of your sweet face. I feel like I will never be able to express the love I have for you, I can't put that much love into words.
Happy Birthday my amazing child, you are more loved than you could ever know.
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